Growing Old E.L.L.

I stop and let it drip
from my body:
a tongue not my own.
This language is more
fierce, desiring, hard as when
the moon just sits
there in the night sky
silent, staring, like death
asleep while in its mind is
mine in my dream
floating where it tells me to go.
The animals start to come
into my world, then leave as quickly
as a first love.
Moss begins to grow
over my eyes
and shade burns through
to the core of memory.
There is light somewhere
although meaning prefers to hide behind
the glare.

Constant freshness of morning
On the side of the mountain
Along the field of slums.
Leave the carriages
Of wasting spirits
Themselves behind a hintertime
Passing under the sun
Hung low and lost
In the inescapable labyrinth
Of age.

I know
being built in the
shadow of demise
was itself à priori a
matter of history
getting ahead of itself.
I am a legend in the
morality play of my own time.

The dusk calls out my name
as if night were less easily
enraptured than the longest day:
the bliss of madness
plays no favorites.

We have this way of transgressing
and no other
more distant from the
wandering that our bodies
cannot ignore.
Is there shame in this,
our looking far and wide for what is near?
It’s like we have trapsed across a landscape
imagining to hover above its mud and morass
when truth tells us
the dirt on our feet is what is beautiful.

A gesture of love Removed her shirt So I thought Till the blinds drawn On Her pale smile Signaled to the slight puddle on the floor The stench of disappointment Wafting picture of primitive silence Stiff as the body Only hours before warm to me.

Thin-skinned nomade indelibly ink-stained from handling
shards as thin as blank pages
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